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Today I actually saw the "LIGHT" ... hee hee funny right, but I never really realized it til today... how could someone say they LOVE you??? do people REALLY know what LOVE means? do they say it cuz it makes the other person feel good? do they just say it to get what they want?? I say it cuz i REALLY mean it.. LOVE has a lot of meaning to mean, when i say i love someone i mean it and not cuz it makes the other person feel good, so to get what i want, its cuz that is how i feel... theres really no correct def. to that word... but i just you just have to feel it from inside.. am i making sense??? but anyways.. these past 3 days really showed me something i never wanted to admit it... (thanks!!! to a couple of people who just sat their and listen to me bla.. bla.. bla.. about it, but they actually made me listen to what i was saying... ) but most esp. to my sister.. i dont know if she said it to make me think or what what it really help... she said, "..____ is worth more than having a person visit ___ in a car... " it might sound weird, but it make perfectally clear to me... anyways.. all im saying is I finally realized that to love a person you just have to let go .. and love yourself first... this person treated me like crap (okok there were some good times :) but i think i deserved much more than "SOME good times" and ... my baby, deserved a FULL-TIME DAD, not a "when im free dad" so today!!! i decided to pack my stuff from his house, and returned to where LOVE is given, see, hear, touch, receive, etc... HOME :)

   ma, pa, kuya, & -lod ... all i  can say is "IM SORRY" for being an ungreatful daughter and sister... forgive me?!?!?

is this soo cute....

its another entry... lets see what has happend in a month... justin is still an A*sHo*e ... nothing new in that department... hmm.. ohh yeah... alyssa's baptism is around the corner now... and of course my 1 and only sister is coming back this friday i cant wait for her to see my baby... i wonder if shes going back to the p-i... hee hee... anyways... i hope she brings back the things i asked her to bring *AHEM* lets see what else... work is going fine... working at the bank is pretty cool.. i get to meet a lot people... and i can see their info. like this one guy asked me to dinner and he tried to lie about his age to me, so i did my thing and found out he was 32, i think thas a little bit too old for me, 8 years... but he did have money though, but im not like that though... if i was the type of girl who only goes for guys with $$$$, man i would be ... hee hee anyways... i havent gotten any new pictures of my baby, soon i will i promise...

man, i need to go out and check out the clubs... ever since i been preg, i havent gone out to the clubs... but its cool i get to spend my spear time with the one i love the most, my baby girl alyssa

i love her soo much, that i never realized how much a person can love anything or anyone.  being a mom is such a wonderful feeling... im soo blessed ... okay, im gonna go play with my baby now, this taking about her makes me miss her  

this is the love of my life...  ALYSSA MARIE  at 4 days old....

and this is her now ...

wow... today was a very interesting at work... i actually had a good time... meet a lot of people... esp. this guy his name is weird though, "oswald" .. WEIRD HUH? weird name but very CUTE!!!! hes around 26, very RICH too and hes single too... awww.... anyways...

i saw A*H*Le today cuz he had to watch alyssa, since i had work... and he got the nerves to tell me to hurry up picking her up cuz he has to see Busta Rhymes OMG can u believe it?? does any one know a GREAT lawyer?